Just Once - Part 3 - Sex Stories

Just Once - Part 3

... talked about you and me, and when we start to have sex again, we could be thinking. Are you wondering if I am thinking about the great sex with Mathew and comparing our lovemaking to that? Also, are you unable to perform because you feel inadequate? Then there is the question, ‘Will I think about Mathew and not you while we make love?’

Dr. Wilson said that this is normal for us to wonder about. A traumatic event has happened that will affect us both, so we have to be careful when we are intimate again. If you have that question, Al, I assure you that I will only be thinking of you. You are my man, and I will never think of Mathew. Al, it may be hard to believe initially, but it will be true. I only want you and have always only wanted you. What happened with Mathew could never happen again, EVER!!”

As I listened to Elaine, I was glad they had discussed these things, as they were a significant concern. Knowing how Elaine had acted while Mathew was fucking her and me hearing it live made me feel inferior to Mathew, and I doubted myself. Knowing that the doctor and Elaine discussed this issue and hearing Elaine reaffirm her love and lust for me was reassuring.

I am glad that Elaine is going to continue sessions with Dr. Wilson and that she has made two appointments for me to talk through my issues and help us to put this incident in perspective so we can truly put it behind us.

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It was near dinner time, and I was hungry, a good sign. My ...

... angst was calming down. There was no rush tonight. There would be no sex. The best it would be was a shower and rubbing our naked bodies together under the hot water. Then, sleeping together on the silk sheets, holding each other.

It was my turn now. I needed to share my feelings and introduce the requirements for Elaine and me to remain married. I would start with a summation of my feelings.

“Elaine, I love you more than my life, so I will not divorce you. That was my choice, yet not my first option. While I was sitting here at this table listening to you eagerly giving your whole body, pussy, mouth, and ass to another man, several options ran through my head many of them were devastating. I chose not to go in that direction but will share them with you.

Eliane, you cannot imagine how humiliating and excruciatingly painful it was to listen to you and the man fucking over and over. It was so devastating to me that I honestly wanted to walk out to my shop, get a shotgun from my gun safe, load it with deer shot, then walk to the bedroom door, turn on the light so you both would clearly see it was me, your loving husband so devastated that I would empty one barrel into each of you finishing your cheating lives. Then, in my utterly insane state of mind, I would pull out my Glock, put it to my head, and end my own life as well. It took every ounce of love and self-preservation in my body to resist that desire.

So, Elaine, like a scared wimp, I sat through all those hours ...