Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01 - Sex Stories

Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01

... The first time using it I successfully came but I got an awful headache afterwards. The same thing happened the next time I took Viagra, I didn't like how it made me feel. So either I was back at square one with the challenges of getting hard, or, I had to deal with the headaches.

I stopped taking the Viagra, it was more than just headaches, I would get lightheaded which lasted for a few hours. I knew that the only solution was to stop the frequent masturbating and that's what I did. I saved the masturbation for when I knew there wouldn't be opportunities for us to have sex like when she was traveling. This worked for a while but if you have these deep rooted sexual desires they can be very controlling. It's hard to resist wanting to jack off to dominatrix scenes in a movie or when reading literotica stories. I found the urge to play out these fantasies in my head which always led to me jacking off. I was back in my old routine, reading erotica, watching porn, or simply imagining a scene in my head where I would be submitting to a beautiful woman.

One thing about fantasies, they tend to evolve over time as you chase the next taboo fetish. To keep getting you the same level of high from your orgasms you had to push the boundaries into new territory. For example, simply getting aroused from a woman dressed in all leather administering a spanking wasn't enough anymore. I had to add in some humiliation and verbal domination.

After another disappointing performance my ...

... wife confronts me about my masturbation, saying she knows that I masturbate because she has found the tissues in the trash or the cum stains on the washcloths. I had thought I was doing a good job of keeping it a secret, only pleasuring myself when my wife was not around or already fast asleep. Apparently I wasn't as good at hiding it as I thought. Kim confronting me about masturbating was embarrassing and uncomfortable but I tried to downplay it by saying I only do it occasionally. She challenged me on the frequency and suggested that it was affecting my performance. I knew she was right but admitting that would mean I would also be admitting to masturbating excessively which suggested I wasn't aroused by her anymore, that was not easy to do and more importantly, not true.

This time Kim didn't drop it, she wanted to talk about this and I was way out of my comfort zone. She did most of the talking and asking questions, I said as little as possible because I was ashamed. Ultimately I knew I had to come clean if I was to save our marriage, that's how upset Kim had become with our lack of intimacy.

"I'm so sorry Kim, I can't seem to stop myself and I know it gets in the way of our sex life. I promise I'll stop going forward." I pleaded.

"How often do you masturbate? She asked me.

"Almost everyday" I confessed.

"What do you think about?"

I was at a crossroads, if I admit I thought of being dominated and like submitting she could think I was some sort of freak and ...