Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01 - Sex Stories

Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01

... This meant I continued to masturbate and in fact the frequency was going up. It was daily and although I was in my 40's sometimes twice a day I would jack off.

The problem this caused was when Kim was in the mood, and we found some alone time, I had to work really hard to cum when I was with her. I tried to suggest I was holding out to make sure she had an orgasm before I blew my load but the fact was I struggled to cum and it took a lot more time. At its worst I would have to conjure up fantasies in my head just to stay hard and one time I actually "faked" like I cummed. Who's ever heard of the guy faking orgasms? In my case, I wasn't doing it because I didn't find my wife sexy, it was a result of too much jacking off while alone.

I knew 'faking' an orgasm would be easy to detect so I was careful to only play that card if it was absolutely necessary and after I tried really hard to cum but wasn't successful. Unfortunately, faking would only be an option if I was hard and inside her fucking, but coupled with getting older I ran into problems getting hard. I knew I didn't have erectile dysfunction or needed Viagra, this was self inflicted due to privately pleasuring myself so often. I think the reason I couldn't stop was because when I masturbated I could create whatever fantasy I wanted, kinks I couldn't share with my wife but that got me so aroused and horny that I would shoot my load in a few minutes.

The first couple times Kim was understanding about not being ...

... able to get it up. She would ask me to help her cum by fingering her or eating her out (yes, I eventually started enjoying giving oral to my wife), which I was more than happy to do. Maybe it was out of guilt but I did think that's the least I can do after I knew the real reason why I wasn't getting or staying hard. But eventually Kim told me I should see my doctor about my E.D. (erectile dysfunction). By now you probably know that talking to some outsider about sexual things was not my style, however, I loved my wife and promised that at my annual physical next month I would talk to the doctor.

The day I had my physical I was nervous about broaching the topic of E.D. Somehow I mustered up the courage, he could tell I was nervous but he was a doctor and probably heard this question hundreds of times. As expected he prescribed me Viagra and explained to me the side effects and to let him know if that didn't help.

Kim was excited to hear about the Viagra, she loved to have sex and now that our daughters were older they were out of the house a lot which gave us plenty of opportunity to fuck like rabbits like we did when we first started dating.

When the next opportunity presented itself we agreed that I would take my Viagra 30-60 minutes prior to us having sex. I really didn't feel much difference taking it...of course I got hard so it did work but it doesn't help you cum. Getting myself to cum was on me, I had to dream about one of my fantasies to push me over the edge. ...