Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01 - Sex Stories

Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01

... communications in the bedroom Kim was having orgasms, not every time but enough that I felt like my performance was passing the test. Needless to say, I was enjoying myself too.

After a few years of dating exclusively we ended up getting married. I was 24, Kim was 25, we were still young and in love. It didn't take long before Kim got pregnant and 9 months later baby #1 arrived. As the saying goes, time went by fast and before we knew it we were in our 40's with 3 daughters.

Even after we married I would often still masturbate. I had some kinky fantasies and would want to watch porn or read stories on the topics. I was pretty young when I would dream about being dominated by girls when I masturbated. I'm not a psychologist so I don't know where these kinks come from but as long as I can remember I tended to get aroused by being a submissive. Initially I didn't know there was even a name for it, or that other people had the same kinks, I thought it was weird and I was too embarrassed to ever mention it to anyone, much less my girlfriends.

That thought process continued into my marriage and stayed with me until now, my dirty little secret. It was still considered unusual for a man to submit to a woman, in some ways it's considered even more perverted than being gay. The U.S. has started opening their minds to the LGBTQ community but the same can't be said for the S&M communities, it's still kept a secret by those who engage in those activities. That's why you see so ...

... many openly gay characters on TV but when they want to tantalize their viewers they create a storyline that involves a dominatrix because it's still considered taboo.

I imagine like most marriages our frequency of having sex decreased. Mostly due to other priorities like raising our children, but there was also the reality that being with the same person can get stale. Add in the fact that I wouldn't open up to my wife about what really turned me on, so I had to find my sexual release when I would masturbate about being dominated by a woman.

As I mentioned, my wife would subtly still nudge me along in the bedroom, if she wanted me to do something different she had a way of bringing it up to where I wouldn't get defensive. If you've been reading this far it may surprise you that I eventually even let it out that I like being spanked. Keep in mind it wasn't that direct, it happened out of happenstance, we were having sex and Kim playfully spanked my ass and I let out an involuntary moan. Kim was perceptive and started adding that to our love making, infrequent at first but started to get more regular as I openly enjoyed it despite never actually saying I did.

But even with the introduction of spanking during sex, it wasn't truly getting dominated like I had seen in porn I watched. Deep down I wanted the women to take charge in the bedroom, treat me like a submissive slave. Kim loved me too much to treat me like that, and I doubt she would understand if I asked her to. ...