Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01 - Sex Stories

Power Dynamics in Marriage Ch. 01

... it would be obvious that I didn't know what I was doing.

To my relief she was cool about it, after discussing it she wanted to have sex and wouldn't judge me on my performance. The first time having sex I was so nervous that I could barely get hard, I knew it was all in my head as I had masturbated for years thinking about some of the girls in my school or who I dated. But with encouragement from my girlfriend I was able to get and stay hard long enough to lose my virginity. I was so relieved, this was a big weight off my shoulders that had started bugging me the last couple of years. I can't speak for anyone else but my first time I didn't see fireworks, I didn't think it was the best moment of my life or any other jubilant phrase you've heard from others about their first time. But the one thing I knew was I was hooked and couldn't wait to do it again.

After that first time we fucked all the time, I was pissed at myself for not taking the plunge sooner. Anywhere we found a spot, and a little bit of time, we would fuck. We would be at friend's parties and sneak off into their bedroom to have sex. One time we were out to dinner with a big group of friends and we snuck off to the restaurant's bathroom to have sex. I did get more relaxed and comfortable but I still didn't really know what I was doing. I wasn't experienced at foreplay, I never ate her out, I thought it was disgusting to put your tongue into a girl's pussy that was where she peed from (at that time i ...

... didn't know they had different pathways for this). Plus, why would I want to put my mouth down where my dick had been the day before, or sometimes, hours before?

Needless to say, I was not a very good lover. However, my girlfriend Kim was head over heels in love with me and was willing to put up with my lack of sexual prowess. Afterall, she knew I was a virgin when we met and was willing to "teach" me in that department. To provide a little more background on Kim, she was a year older than me and dated a fair number of guys before me. She lost her virginity to her high school sweetheart at 15 yrs old, she dated him throughout high school and eventually broke up when he went away to college where she found out he was cheating on her. This made her the jealous type because she felt like she was made a fool of, she trusted her boyfriend at the time, but she never wanted to get burned by that again. So although she was way more experienced in the sex department than me that didn't say much. She wasn't a one night type of girl that you could meet at a bar and take her home to bang her, that just wasn't her personality.

So although Kim was more experienced and knew what she liked she hesitated to bring it up because I could be very sensitive to criticism. She pushed me along on how she liked it but we never had an open detailed conversation about sex. This was a carryover from my Catholic upbringing, sex was something that just wasn't talked about. Despite not having open ...