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A Stepmother's Sin - Chapter 5: I try to understand what is motivating my stepson
Date: 1/6/2017, Categories: Taboo Author: submissivemom72
... things out. I needed to assess how this happened and what to do about it. Just how culpable was I? Did I do something that caused Robert to come on to me, or was I merely thrown into a difficult and unexpected situation to which I responded poorly? What exactly did I do to encourage Robert to feel so comfortable pushing the boundaries with me? When did I cross the line from being his mother to being a sexual target for him? How did this happen? Wait, I realized, I was asking all the wrong questions. While understanding my level of culpability might lessen, or increase the level of guilt I was already feeling, it was not going to help me determine what I should be doing next? Unintentionally, I had crossed a line that should never have been crossed, actually several lines. On the other hand, Robert was of legal age, and he was a fully developed and mature man; at least physically he was. And although I knew what Robert and I did was wrong by any measure, he did not think it was wrong; he thought it was one of the most beautiful encounters two people could experience. Was I really in a position to argue against his assessment? Could he be right? Could it be that these would be the most precious and cherished memories he ever experiences as he passed through life? I had to accept the fact that not only wasn’t I going to change Robert’s view of this, I was not going to be able to dissuade him from trying, in a most tenacious manner, to maintain the physical nature of our ...
... relationship. And did I really want to dissuade him? Objectively speaking, on one level, I felt the proper thing was to stop this craziness; however, I knew I would be unable to resist his determined full pressure assault on my will power and my loins. On a very deep level, I knew I desired this to continue as much as Robert did; perhaps more. After all, as a college student, Robert had numerous other alternative sexual outlets available. I did not. Although I verbally had discouraged Robert's advances, I did not resist enough, if at all. In fact, my physical reactions did nothing but encourage my stepson to continue. While I was saying the word ‘no’, I was allowing Robert to remove my panties, and I was squatting and opening my thighs to give Robert better access to my most intimate parts. I did enjoy his touch. I loved the feeling of having him inside me, filling me and stretching me open. I loved the feeling last night of laying with Robert inside me in a post-coital cuddle as I slowly descended from a powerful orgasm. Wrong as it was, I enjoyed it, a lot. I would like to think that if I really wanted to do so, I could behave better going forward, but I was fairly certain I would not be able to resist his pressure and advances. He simply knew how to push my buttons too well. And I felt certain his pressure would continue after the success he had had so far. Okay, if I could not institute a “dead stop” on the physical and sexual aspects of our relationship, what were the rules? ...