She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13 - Sex Stories

She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13

... had I done? What the fuck is wrong with me? Part of me argued that my remorse was enough, that I didn’t need to tell Kayla anything. I could take this secret to my grave. So would Tara, if I asked her. And Amanda…well, maybe she really wouldn’t use this against me, at least if I talked to her first. Explained it all and asked her to please, please, please never mention it to Kayla. Things would be okay. They really would. I was at the top of the stairs now and, as I turned to my room, I imagined how it must have looked to Amanda, coming into my bedroom without a clue what was happening inside. What she saw…how she had felt. The shock of it, anyway. Me kissing Tara…groping Tara. Like we’d been doing it for years. There was no way I could hide that. Stuff like this…it always comes out in the end. And when it did, then Kayla would demand to know why I didn’t tell her before, why I had kept it from her. No secrets. That’s what I had promised. Well, what about her secrets? the asshole part of my brain asked, She’s hiding stuff from you. The text messages. They were text messages. Probably from someone trying to get with her, based on her annoyed reactions to them. She wasn’t cheating on me, I knew that. How would she be able to get around? I was basically her ride around town and we both texted each other as much as possible. Besides…it wasn’t like her. It wasn’t like me either but…I fucked that up but good. I had to tell her. After all, my plan of keeping it a secret involved ...

... explaining it to Amanda. How could I explain it to my sister just fine and not to my girlfriend? It had to happen. Come what may. By the end of today, a piece of my heart may be gone. Putting on my shoes seemed to take as long as getting dressed did and I started to suspect I was purposefully dragging it out to avoid talking with Kayla. The part of my brain that agreed with that idea hadn’t shut up since I first decided to tell her and now it was screaming at me, telling me to put it off at least, or, preferably, just not do it. A secret is fine. It’s only one. Besides, it’s to protect our relationship. I mean, I had to think about the relationship. Sometimes you have to do something hard, something you’re not comfortable with, to preserve something like this. Would it be fair to Kayla to give her a reason to break up with me when she was happy with me? Thinking about us…breaking up sent a rip into my heart. Yes, it would be easier to not say anything and just live with the secret forever. Yes, Kayla was happy in our relationship and breaking up would make us both miserable. Yes, it would only be me living with the guilt forever. And Tara, of course. But she’d keep Kayla’s friendship and they’d… “No,” I growled to myself, finishing tying my shoes and grabbing my jacket. Tara was waiting for me in the foyer when I came down the stairs, looking sadder than I’d ever seen her, even when her dog died. She and I stared at each other for a second before I walked past her to the door. ...