She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13 - Sex Stories

She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13

... in,” he replied, “I wish he was like one of those trash bins with the opening pedal at the bottom.” “Well, he can be,” Alan said, pleased at the thought, “Stomp on his foot hard enough and his mouth will open, trust me.” “Be nice,” Amanda admonished. I was seriously confused. She wasn’t going to feed off this golden platter she’d been given? No humiliation? No blackmail? Can’t let my guard down yet. She might just be trying to get me relaxed. I picked up a strip of bacon and nibbled on it. My stomach was sour and tight and just the idea of eating made it shrivel up even more. The bacon was cooked as perfectly as mom always made it but chewing on it was like chewing paper. I could sense the flavor but it did nothing to refresh me. If anything, it made me want to throw up. I managed to eat one strip of bacon and a couple of bites of a biscuit before I stood up. “Sorry,” I said, wiping my mouth, “Just not feeling that good.” “Do you want to call into work?” mom asked at once, getting up and putting the back of her hand to my forehead, “If you’re not feeling good…” “I’ll be fine,” I said, taking her hand away, “Just a little stomach ache.” Dad nodded. “Pizza will do that to you. Maybe next time you’ll slow down a bit and chew your food like a civilized animal.” Mom flicked his ear. Truth be told, there was no way I could stay home from work. Kayla was going to see me today, one way or the other, and the last thing I wanted to do was be trapped at home where I would have to be ...

... constantly reminded of how much I fucked up after I told her. I could use the distraction of work after…after I went over and told her how I kissed and groped my cousin and Jesus fucking Christ, Jack, what the fuck is wrong with you?! I was halfway up the stairs when the rage hit. I sagged against the wall and clutched my head in both hands, my eyes squeezed shut as my mouth fell open. I wanted to roar with fury, fury at myself, at my stupidity. I loved Kayla. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. And because of one minute of stupidity, I might have thrown all of that away. I tried to roar, but nothing came out. My insides were boiling with fury and I was seeing red behind my closed eyelids. The outside world faded away until I was in a closed box, curled up under a spotlight I couldn’t escape from. Everyone and everything could see me. They saw what I had done. No reasons, no explanations…just actions. I had cheated on Kayla. They saw my fury, my anger at myself, my desire to rip myself apart until what was left could fade away with the breeze. I was naked and there was nothing I could do to take back what had happened. It was forever and only an instant at the same time. The anger slowly subsided and I was able to gradually pull myself out of the ball I had curled into. The pain from my rage was still there, a hard throbbing in my head like someone using it for boxing practice and a pinching at my heart. I seriously felt like I was going to have a panic attack. What ...