1. Next Chapter 3


    Date: 6/17/2016, Categories: Fiction Author: Michael.F

    ... calmer and we’ll figure out this whole…” She nodded once. “Yes we will.” Nothing else. “Kayla, I’m sorry it got so out-of-hand. I didn’t want to make you feel like crap or anything. I don’t think you’re a liar or that you did it because you’re…I don’t know…” Just stop talking, Jack, this isn’t helping. She just looked at me, two tears quivering in her eyes. “I’m glad you don’t think that. Whatever it is.” “I love you,” I said desperately, grabbing her gently by the shoulders, “I do. And I’m sorry about all this and I want to talk about it more…Calmly or whatever…When I can talk. I don’t even know what I’m saying right now. It’s just a bunch of—” “You should hurry, Jack,” Kayla said with chilling politeness, “You don’t wanna be more late than you are.” “Right…right…” I said, leaning in to give her a kiss, which she accepted. Her lips pressed against mine briefly and I felt them quiver. If I could separate myself from myself, I’d throw myself a huge beating. “I love you,” I said again, using every ounce of that honest emotion from my heart to fuel those words into something that might begin to make up for the asshole I was for the last twenty minutes or so. “I love you too,” she said, swallowing hard, “But, Jack…I just want you to know that you really, really hurt me. I know I hurt you too by lying to you, but…just thought you should know. So I can be completely honest with you.” If Frank had still been on the phone, I would have told him I was too sick to come ...
    ... into work. Too late for that now, of course. I wanted to cry, to let all that regret I was feeling burst forth so Kayla and I could work this out right away instead of having feelings stew and simmer all day and potentially morph into something even worse than it already was. But I couldn’t. I had to go to work. And maybe some space was what we needed. “Bye,” I said, leaning in to kiss her again, this time on the cheek, filling the kiss with as much love as possible. It wasn’t going to make up for everything but it was something. We still had a lot more to talk about but I couldn’t just leave it on a note of animosity. I needed to give her something positive, even something as small as that. I mean, after all…it’s not like either side was completely innocent. This wasn’t a question of who started it or who was more in the wrong but…well, balance again. Finding the equal ground where we could fix stuff and rebuild without feeling like one of us was more ‘right’ than the other. It had to be made right again. Kayla had been right…it would be great to go back to the way things were before all the bullshit. My brain continued to babble on in undecipherable noises as I walked out of Kayla’s room, leaving behind the most hollow silence that had ever existed between us. I’d been scared by many things in my life but the silence that stretched until I was out her door was the first that pierced beyond the fear sensors in my brain and dug itself straight into my heart. ...
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