1. Once a Nerd Ch. 11


    Date: 8/27/2024, Categories: Gay Male, Author: byhardwoodstudios, Source: Literotica 

    ... hair.

"Holy...shit."

I can't bring myself to say anything, and he turns to appraise me.

"It's...him? Sam, when—"

He's asking when this all started, because Dean's ateenager.

"This year." It's a gagged admittance, one I can barely squeeze out. 'This year' doesn't make it redeemable.

"Wha—? How? Why? I mean, you were his...histeacher—"

"I fucking know! I...I know. He just...wouldn't leave it alone. He wouldn't leaveme alone." I don't feel comfortable blaming Dean, but it's the goddamn truth of the matter. The desire to defend oneself against scrutiny is an ingrained, human response. Unless you're someone like Dean, which I'm decidedly not. "That's why...I enrolled here, because it's far, far away from home. Then, he accepted a scholarship to Fresno, and here we are, okay? I tried to end itso many times. That's all I can...fucking say for myself."

"Is he...forcing you? I mean, he's...a big guy, so—"

"No, no! He's never...forced me. He's just...really, really persistent, and I..."

Give into it every. Single. Time.

Casey gets this pensive, frowning expression that sets my nerves to twisting. Casey's a guy of high moral fiber, and at one point in time, I thought I was too. What if...he doesn't believe it? Or, even if he does, what if he's too put off to maintain a friendship with me? God, I have a hard enough time connecting with people as it is—

"So, you're okay? Do you like him? I mean, in hindsight, you lookedterrified, dude."

His concern ...
    ... uncoils the cord from my neck, and I can breathe marginally easier.

"I'm just...uncomfortable with it, for obvious reasons. I know how it looks on me, and for him, it's...it won't be well-received. I don't want him to have a hard time because of this. I mean, he's got so much ahead of him. Like you said, he'll probably get drafted, and no matter what he thinks, I just can't see myself in his future. I'meleven fucking years older than him. I was histeacher, for Christ's sake!"

Burying my face in the cup of my hands, I scrub that skin to a red puff.

"I mean, he followed you all the way to California. After a win like that, he'd rather have dinner with you than get shitfaced with his team. Seems like he's got a 'hell or high water' mentality. If you like him, just...go with the flow." Casey shrugs flippantly, and I'm baffled by his nonchalance.

"...seriously? You don't think it's...fucking crazy? You don't think I'm—"

...a terrible person?

"We've only known each other for a short while, but I've got a good eye for people. You're a good person, Sam. I really, really don't think you'd have instigated anything with one of your students, but guys like him—" He scratches the stiff hairs of his beard with blunt nails. "I know guys like him. I get it. As long asyou're okay, that's all that matters to me, I guess. I don't think less of you for it."

Just as the knots in my stomach begin to loosen, my phone chimes. It's from Dean, and it's a wordless location pin for ...
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