Homeomorphism - Step 01 - Sex Stories

Homeomorphism - Step 01

... to control their body!" Charlotte was getting upset now, too. She expected Hayley to understand, just as she had before. "It's all chemicals and electrical impulses. You're a fucking neuroscience major, Hayley, I know you know this! All we can do is decide whether or not we act on our urges or not! And I think it's great that you're exercising whatever mental muscle it is that allows you to say no, but you need to learn that it's okay to say yes too!"

"You don't know what it's like, Charlotte! You've never-" Hayley caught herself midsentence, remembering that she was talking to the only person in her life who might actually know what it's like, too. Shamefully, she looked away. "...I shouldn't ever have to masturbate in a hotel bathroom just to satisfy an urge."

Charlotte took a deep breath, calming herself down. "You're right," she whispered, nodding her head. "You're right."

The girls sat in silence, neither knowing what to say next. Finally, Charlotte broke the silence.

"Can we talk in my room?"

Begrudgingly, Hayley nodded.

***

Hayley sat quietly on Charlotte's bed, looking around the room while she waited for Charlotte to return. With a creak, Charlotte pushed the bedroom door open, entering with two cups of tea. She handed them both to Hayley before crawling onto the bed, taking hers back once she was situated.

"I think there are two separate issues here, Hayley, control and indulgence, and I think one is a lot worse than the other."

"What are ...

... you, a fucking therapist?"

"It seems like you could use one," Charlotte said with a chuckle, trying to bring some levity to the conversation. Hayley didn't laugh.

"Why do you hate masturbating so much?" Charlotte quietly asked.

Hayley sighed, already growing tired of the conversation. "I've told you this already. It makes me feel weak, and it's not just masturbating. It's all of it. All the arousal."

"Why does it make you feel weak?"

"Oh my god." Hayley rolled her eyes. "Because I can't say no! Because I don't get a choice! It doesn't bother you that youneed to masturbate?"

Something strange crossed Charlotte's face. Guilt? Shame? She looked like she wanted to say something, confess something, but she was too scared. Just like on Saturday night. Whatever it was, Charlotte quickly shook it away and gathered herself. "Do you think hunger is a weakness?"

"What?" Hayley looked not only confused but annoyed by the question.

"Do you feel weak when you give into your hunger and eat a meal?"

"That...what? That's not the same at all. Hunger is necessary for survival."

"No, hunger is a product of evolutionary design. We don't eat to survive - not really. We eat because our brain makes us eat. It's just another part of life. A necessity. And for whatever reason, your brain thinks orgasms are a necessity too. "

"But they're not! I won't die if I refuse to masturbate!"

"That doesn't matter, Hayley, that's my point! It's not a matter of survival. It's a ...