Go Ahead, Keep Going! Pt. 03 - Sex Stories

Go Ahead, Keep Going! Pt. 03

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Hold Me

In her room, the two of us sat on her bed in relative silence. She clutched a fresh bag of hot fries to her chest and chomped away at them. It was already half empty.

"I'm still sorry about your glasses," I said. "Cumming on them, I mean. Didn't mean to."

"You shitwit," she replied between gulps. "Your conversational skills are worse than mine sometimes."

She rolled up the rest of her fries and set them aside half-finished.

"Admirable restraint," I said.

She licked her lips clean and regarded me with caution. "Okay, go ahead. Let's hear it."

"I'm sorry for getting mad," I said. "I wasn't even really mad at you, to be honest. I was just scared because I didn't understand what was happening and thought I was being tricked or something."

My sister nodded in understanding. A grave seriousness seeped into her delicate features.

"I know," she said. "And I wasn't really that mad at you either. I was scared too."

I rubbed her thigh tenderly. It was a sexless, brotherly rub.

"Because I was raising my voice?" I asked.

She shook her head. "No. I get scared whenever I feel like the family dynamic is being threatened. I have this overwhelming sense of dread that comes over me when things change. And when I get scared I get angry. That's why I was so mad at Mom's boyfriend the other day. It's why I INSISTED on egging his house and making you come with me while I did it. I felt I had to show you how committed I was to protecting our ...

... dynamic." "That's fine, Alice. But what about the sex stuff?"

She nodded, staring at the wall, forcing down a sob. "I really DID think I was asexual for the longest time, Devin, honestly. You have to believe me. Remember those two boys I dated in high school?"

"Yeah, Daryl and Jon."

She sniffled. "Remember how I always told you and Mom that I never did anything with them sexually?"

"Yeah."

She made eye contact with me finally, gazing wearily through her lenses. Those hazel eyes shimmered with a sort of grown-up wisdom I hadn't seen there before. "That was a lie. I DID do stuff. But I did it just to please them. I thought I had to do it to make them like me because otherwise, I'm just this weirdo freak that nobody wants around. The other girls had boyfriends too and I wanted to have the same things that they had. So I THOUGHT I wanted a boyfriend..."

She sniffed and rubbed one of her eyes with her sleeve.

"...but all I really wanted was to be liked."

I put my arm around her shoulder and hugged her close to me.

"Did they make you have sex?" I asked.

"No," she said. "Just a handjob I didn't particularly enjoy. And Jon tried to finger me once, but I didn't like it. After that, we split up and I decided I must not like sex since I really didn't know much about it to begin with. I avoided it."

Alice leaned into my shoulder, wrapping her arms around me and lacing her fingers together around my waist.

"But what I didn't understand at the time," she ...