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A Second Time With John “Revised”
Date: 3/12/2024, Categories: Diary, Author: markerss
... nervous now too, obviously wanting it to go well, I know I did, and as we sat down, John again said, "It's really nice to be with you again." Moving closer, taking the lead, he again put his hand on my leg. Looking at each other for a moment, he asked, “Can I get you anything?” Looking up at him, I simply said, “No,” and after a few seconds, John again said, “Well, I’m glad you wanted to come over.” Not knowing what to say, I simply sat there and when he scooted closer, putting his hand on my thigh, I looked over at him. He was smiling and looking at each other he asked, “What do you want to do?” I was confused, I thought he knew, but now I wasn’t sure, however when he said, “I’ve thought about being with you,” I was relieved he had got the message. Knowing what I was about to agree to, made me nervous, and looking over at him, I politely smiled and before I could say anything he leaned toward me and said, "Close your eyes." I was hesitant, but seeing that he meant it, I nervously closed them, and when I felt him lean toward me even more, I instinctively open my eyes. I was nervous what he was going to do, figuring he was going to kiss me. However, John leaned away slightly, and as we looked at each other he said, "Don't worry.” Nervously, I looked down, I didn’t want to consider what he wanted to do, however when he lifted my chin and we looked at each other, he again told me, "Close your eyes.” Continuing to smile shyly, I nervously said, “I’m ...
... scared.” It made him smile too and then say, “Now, you’re going to make me nervous too.” He had turned to face me and putting both hands on my thighs, he leaned toward me and again whispered, “Close ‘em.” Cautiously, I closed them and when he leaned on my thighs, and I felt his lips pressing against mine, I winced, closing my eyes even tighter. It was only for a second or two, and when our lips parted, and I opened my eyes, he was smiling as we looked at each other. Seeing I was nervous, John said, “That wasn’t so bad, was it?” Immediately I again told him I was nervous, which made him smile, and after a few seconds he said, “Don't worry.” He was still leaning toward me and seeing me continuing to smile, he again told me to close my eyes, giving my thighs a gently squeeze. Nervously, closing them, I felt him lips touching mine, as he kissed me again. I really felt it wasn’t right to be kissing a guy, never thinking I would. However, as he continued to kiss me a couple more times, it felt like he was opening his mouth, and trying to push his tongue into mine. Immediately, it made me open my eyes, and pull away, scared. Looking at him, I’m sure he knew it was making me nervous and then after a pause he said, "You're a good kisser.” I think he was merely trying to make light of it, trying put my mind at ease, trying to tell me it was okay. Instinctively, I nervously looked down, and without looking at me, he casually reached over, to feel on my chest. I ...