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A Second Time With John “Revised”
Date: 3/12/2024, Categories: Diary, Author: markerss
... that?” It made me smile and when I didn’t say anything, John leaned up to kiss me. I didn’t know what to do, knowing I had just cum in his mouth, but as he pressed his lips against mine, I closed my eyes. I cringed a little and when he pushed his tongue in my mouth, I instinctively pushed my tongue into his mouth. I didn’t taste anything and as our lips parted he again asked, “Sure you can’t stay?” It was starting to get late and as we got dressed, John said, “Why don’t you come by tomorrow,” and then said, “If you want to.” It made me smile, but being nervous I simply said, “Maybe.” He seemed to be okay with that, and after he took me home, I couldn’t help but think, “Am I gay.” I liked having sex, I liked the feel, I didn’t want to think I might be gay, but being at that time, John was the only person to have sex with me, I was troubled. Again, I tried to stay away from John, but wanting to be with him was always in the back of my mind, probably because he was the only one to ever have sex with me. Yes, I’ve had sex with several girls since then, but continually feel I have to convince myself I’m not gay, telling myself, “It was only a one time thing.” However, the thought of having someone actually fucking me, whether it’s another guy or a transsexual is constantly in my thoughts, even when I’m having sex with girls.