Sun and Sea Final
Date: 1/15/2024,
Categories:
Gay Male,
Author: by4mnowhere
Sun and Sea: Letting Go or Not!
Narrator: Rohit
As soon as the kids left, I turned to Anu and hugged him. "Why baby! Why are you killing yourself like this?"
"When Kitoo left in the morning, my first thought was to move away to Hyderabad with him. And then those months came back to me and I realised I can't run away from you. I physically can't, my legs didn't move. I will die without you RK. I can't imagine a life without you." He hugged me tighter as if I would run away if he let go.
"I haven't told you this but when you entered the restaurant the first day I saw you, I knew! You were the most handsome person I have ever seen in those impossibly tight white T shirt and blue tracks. I didn't know you were straight or gay at that time but I knew it was you I wanted and it scared me. You keep telling me that I affected you just by tuning my guitar but I was doing it all wrong, buying time to think of something witty or funny or interesting to tell you when we talk for the first time, to make you like me. I walked up to you and stood a bit closer under the light so that I could show off my eyes to you, my best feature." I bent and kissed his forehead, feeling a bit more in love with him after knowing I had affected him too.
"When my mother told me to stay away from you, I wanted to die. I was thinking, can't I even talk to someone I like, even if he doesn't like me back? Can't we be friends? But I think she knew we wouldn't be friends, in her hatred for me, she ...
... saw we would fall in love with each other. She knew I had found my partner and hence she was always pissed at you too. That day you took me home and gave me your clothes, I never returned them. On bad days, I would sleep in them imagining you were there with me. I brought that lip balm that night in the cabin, wanting things to happen between us. I was ready to do anything to make you like me, anything."
I made him sit on the couch and kneeled in front of him holding both his hands, "I liked you without anything. I was so mad at myself that I made you feel like you had to offer me yourself in return. You have always been enough for me, just being around you is enough, Anu."
"I know baby! I have always known, from the first time we met. That night I came to our house again with Kitoo before taking the train to Delhi. I wanted to come and beg you to take us both in, but I didn't because I knew you would, without a word. It's a small town and you were too famous, it would have never worked. Every day, every second when we were apart I thought of you. I took your name as mine and Kitoo as your son. I am done running away from you, Babe. I can't, I will die!" I laid my head on his lap and hugged him around his waist.
"I can never forget that first night when you brought us here. It was empty with just one small bed and you had laid a sleeping Kitoo on it. You came out of his bedroom and I was sitting there", He pointed at the corner wall connecting the living room to the ...