She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13 - Sex Stories

She is the one - Chapter 19 from jashley13

... to just sweep everything under the rug. Visit her parents? Shit, what if she told them? My veins went cold at the thought of an angry Mr. Hannigan coming after me. I mean…what if I bought her something and… I wanted to slam my head into the wall. Yeah, buy her something. Bribe her into not being mad at me anymore. What a great idea! I knew Frank was right, that I needed to just wait and let her talk to me when she was ready but…this was the first time since I met her that Kayla hadn’t ‘been there’. I don’t mean physically but just not there in spirit. She was still in my heart and she always would be but knowing how mad she was and knowing how badly I’d screwed everything up…I felt a piece of my life was missing. I couldn’t get up the enthusiasm about anything. You could have offered to let me wander through Best Buy unsupervised for half an hour and whatever went missing, no questions asked, and I wouldn’t have been interested. Yeah, it was that bad. I was sitting in my car, freezing my butt off, not wanting to turn on the car. If I turned it on, I had to go somewhere. I didn’t have anywhere I wanted to go. I could go home…and be closer to Kayla…And Tara and Amanda and everything else that would remind me of what happened. But where the hell else was I going to go? The mall? The bowling alley? My phone buzzed and I bashed my elbow against the door yanking it out of my pocket. Was it…? No, it was Joe. Joe: Hey buddy! Watcha up to? Me: Not much. Joe: Wanna hang? Belle wants ...

... to go to the skating rink and they’re having a two-for-one deal. Two couples for the price of one. :D Me: Not really. Sorry. Joe: Dude, you okay? Me: I’m just not feeling good. Which wasn’t technically a lie. But I couldn’t tell him that Kayla wouldn’t come without telling him why and…shit, this was just going to be an endless cycle of deceit and lies, wasn’t it? Joe: Well, stop it! Kayla better be looking after you. Me: I’ll get better soon. Don’t worry. Joe: You better! Christmas in two days!!!! :D what did you get me? Me: You’ll have to wait and see. Joe: Boooo! Get better, man. I’ll text you later. Me: Ttyl. I turned on the car, jumping as the cold air blasted me in the face. I wanted to hang with Joe, I really did. I could probably use some of his goofiness right now. But there was no way I’d be able to hide what I was feeling. Believe me, I was doing my best at work and Frank still noticed. I rubbed my face tiredly, feeling like I just wanted to fall into a coma until Kayla decided to forgive me. No…that was me trying to punish myself and Kayla said I shouldn’t do that. Well, fuck, what the fuck was I supposed to do? I was getting angry again, though at what I didn’t know. Myself probably. The situation. The fact that all this happened because I just couldn’t wake up fast enough. The fact that there was absolutely nothing I could do to make it better and even if there was, I shouldn’t do it. I couldn’t force this to fix itself. I wanted to, oh, God, how I wanted to. But ...