Next Chapter 3
Date: 6/17/2016,
Categories:
Fiction
Author: Michael.F
... “Okay…Yeah, I lied about that,” she said, hurt overtaking anger on her face, “But what does it change, Jack? I mean, it doesn’t change how I feel about you. And it didn’t change what it meant for me the first time we had sex. At all.” “Why did you lie?” “I don’t know…I guess I just wanted it to be a new start, you know? A guy I really loved, making love for the first time…” “You could have told me.” “Jesus Christ, Jack, I know,” she said, her voice spiking, “You think I don’t feel shitty about it? But I’m telling you now.” “After I found out on my own.” Brain, anytime you wanna stop my mouth, that’d be great. Anger was coming back. “Yeah, about that…Why did you go through my phone?” “Why didn’t you delete him?” “Well shit, Jack, I guess I’m not perfect,” she replied acidly, “I don’t want him back or anything, I guess…Fuck, I don’t know, okay? I’m sorry.” “Okay.” She looked at me expectantly for a bit. I just stared back. “Well?” she finally said. “Well, what?” “Aren’t you going to apologize?” “For what? I didn’t do anything wrong.” “You went through my phone!” “You lied to me about me being your first!” I had never seen her this angry. Well, okay, maybe I had, but it was different when it was directed at me. “Is that it, Jack? Is that what this is about? You not being the first guy inside me?” “No! I mean, yeah, that’s there…but that’s not what—” “Jack!” she said, stepping forward and taking my hands, “I…love…you! Isn’t that enough? I’m sorry I lied about it, okay? I’m sorry ...
... I kept it from you. But it’s not a big deal!” “Lying to me isn’t a big deal?” “What’s gotten into you, Jack? This isn’t like you.” I didn’t know. I was so angry and I couldn’t keep it down. Part of me was fighting to keep it back but it was a losing fight. “Have you been keeping anything else from me?” I demanded. “No!” “Are you sure? Because I don’t want to have to wait another few months to find out something else I believed in was actually a lie.” “I’m telling you this, Jack! I’m coming clean!” “When I kissed Tara, I told you right away because honesty is supposedly important to you. That’s what you told me, right?” “Yes…” “So I can’t be mad at you for something you kept from me for months but I got a day of silence even though I had the decency to admit what happened?” I was making mental notes to give myself a good punch for everything I said. I couldn’t stop myself (I was too angry) but the rational part of my brain was keeping score. Kayla’s eyes were welling with tears. “I know you’re a good guy, Jack. I think that’s the first time you’ve ever thrown it in someone’s face.” “I’m not trying to throw it in your face. I’m trying to figure out this double-standard that you seem to have.” “I’m sorry! I’m sorry I’m not perfect! What the hell do you want?” Angry tears were crawling down her cheeks. “I lied to you because I guess I just wanted to forget a really shitty time when I did something really stupid for a really stupid reason! Is that good enough for you?” “This isn’t ...