Awakenings Ch. 31 - Sex Stories

Awakenings Ch. 31

... puzzlement in Maureen's eyes. "Why not? I like you. You're my friend. Why shouldn't I want you to have a memorable experience." "Because it's not with you." "If we were golf partners rather than fuck buddies should I get upset if you had fun playing golf with a really good golfer?" "Michael!" "What?" "You can't equate fucking and golf. They aren't the same." "Why not?" "Well, for one, you can't get pregnant playing golf." "Are you concerned that I'm going to get you pregnant?" "Of course not! But...Oh this is so confusing." "I will agree with that. Sex is very confusing." "Okay, but you do have to admit that sex is a much more intimate act than golf." "It doesn't have to be. It certainly isn't for Mel and Amy. It isn't for Jeanne either and weren't you the one who wanted to learn how to give blow jobs to guys you just met without feeling guilty about it?" "Aren't you even a little bit jealous when Jeanne tells you about the fun she had with another man?" "Once you understand that sex doesn't always have to be an expression of love, jealousy fades. Envy may still be a problem." "Envy, but not jealousy? Please explain that." "They're not synonyms." "Go on." "Jealousy refers to the fear that a person you love may love another." "Okay." "Envy is the desire to have something another has." "So while you may not be jealous of Jeanne's boy friends you might envy them." "Jeanne now acknowledges that when this first started one of her mistakes was failing to make me the most sexually ...

... satisfied husband on this planet before she broached the idea of playing with other men. Ruth learned from Jeanne. She's being very careful to be certain her new relationship with Matt is just as exciting for David as it is for her." "Michael, she's thinking about making him wear a cock cage." "That's David's fantasy. That's what he wants. He isn't going to be envious of Matt because his fantasy is being fulfilled. I would also be surprised if Ruth isn't making it clear to David that he can have her any time he wants her." "You're telling me they're acting out a fantasy together." "That's exactly what I'm saying. They each want something different from this fantasy, but it's still a mutually satisfying game. Ruth gets to play with a well endowed assertive lover and David gets to act out his submissive masochistic cuckold desires." "A game?" "Of course. David will always be the man of Ruth's dreams. I've known them far too long to ever doubt that. This is a game of make believe, a very exciting game of make believe, but that's all it is and that's all it will ever be." "A game of make believe, I like that. Maybe if Eric and I had been able to play a game of make believe he wouldn't have needed his chippy." "Six months ago were you ready to play a game of make believe?" Maureen considered that question. After a moment she answered, "No definitely not." Nodding, I said, "We're taught to hide our fantasies. They may be desires, but they're illicit desires, desires we can't admit ...