Love is a Place Ch. 01: The Puzzle - Sex Stories

Love is a Place Ch. 01: The Puzzle

... finished.

-Now. Shade out the top left hand square as we won't need it. Then add "Sarah desires Samantha" to the first cell in the second row and "Sarah doesn't desire Samantha" to the first cell in the third row. Do you understand?

-Yes. Okay, I have done that.

-Now, in the cell at the top of the second column write "Samantha desires Sarah" and in the cell at the top of the third column write "Samantha doesn't desire Sarah." Okay.

Samantha now understood this. It was a version of the prisoners' dilemma metaphor that Dr Alison had often used with her to show the necessity of cooperation and trust.

-So Samantha, what action should you put in the bottom right-hand cell? -No action is required Dr Alison, as neither Sarah nor I desire the other so we can continue as normal.

-Exactly. Now what about the cell that indicates that "Sarah desires Samantha" but "Samantha does not desire Sarah"?

-I need to inform Sarah that I do not reciprocate her feelings? Samantha's voice took on a higher pitch that tasted chalky to her ears. Her chest was beginning to bend inwards.

-Yes! And I guarantee you that Sarah will accept this Samantha and that nothing will need to change in the short to medium term. Sarah understands you and cares for you and will accept this. This is equally true if YOU express a desire for her that she does not reciprocate.

-Okay. It was a relief for Samantha to hear this. Dr Alison had only been wrong once (Puzzle Sub:Sarah 78) as regards ...

... Sarah.

-Therefore, Samantha, do you see why the Puzzle is really about you?

Samantha looked at the grid and she did see it.

-Yes I do. The Puzzle is "How will I react if I desire Sarah and she does not desire me?" and, also, "How will I react if we both desire each other?"

-Absolutely! Well done. You need to solve this Puzzle before you discuss anything with Sarah, otherwise the actions that you both need to take will not be clear.

-Okay. Thank you. That is good advice Dr Alison.

-You're welcome.

-How can I solve this Puzzle about my feelings then?

-Well, I think you should explore some reading material about lesbian relationships and see if you can visualise yourself in the roles described. After that, if you feel comfortable, you might try viewing some images and film, though I would suggest that you seek advice from other women on this as most of such images are produced for men rather than women. I imagine that is confusing, but trust me on this. Do you know any lesbians that you can talk to Samantha?

Samantha thought for a moment and realised that she probably did know one lesbian.

-Yes, I think I do.

-Do you know them in a capacity where you can approach them to discuss this?

Samantha thought about this. She thought that this was the case. Dr Summers was her Personal Tutor in the Department after all, and this was something personal that she might need tutoring in.

-Yes. I think I have a similar relationship to them as I did with you in ...