Just Once - Part 2 - Sex Stories

Just Once - Part 2

... to do with sex, cock size, or any other question. It is strictly about who I am and whether I belong married to you. I have to be able to look at myself in the mirror every day and say honestly, yes, I deserve to be your wife, and yes, I can abide by the commitments that we have made to each other that I have now violated.

To that end, I will be leaving now for some time to sort out who I am and whether I am worthy of being your wife. I know you are the man I want. I have known that since we first met, but in light of yesterday and last night, I have to understand how and why that happened and if it is what I want or if you and our babies are what I want.

Give me time, Al, Give me time.

I will be at my mother's if you want to talk to me, but I will not be ready for a few days.

I am so sorry for what I have done. There are no words in my heart to truly express the sadness I feel for how badly I have hurt you. I feel horrible and deserve anything that you will do or say to me.

Al, I love you and always will, regardless of how this goes. Please know that you are my only man and that what happened was a freak event that could never happen again.

Give me a few days, and we can talk.

I love you more than life.

Elaine

I reread the note and looked at her back.

"Elaine, look at me."

She slowly turned, tears rolling down her cheeks, and she took a deep breath.

"How did we get here?" I asked. "What happened?"

Elaine looked at me with profound ...

... sadness on her face, "I don't know, baby, which is what I have to figure out. It is on me, not you. You have done nothing wrong. You are a perfect husband, but somehow, I am no longer the perfect wife. That is what I have to figure out. I am meeting with my mom's therapist tonight, which may help. This was just one significant lapse in judgment that we could put behind us and move on if that is what we want. I did this to you and us. It is my fault. I have to come to terms with it myself, then you and I can deal with it however we do. I need a few days, and we can talk.

I love you, Alfonso, more than anything. I want to have your babies and a loving family, living every breath of my life with you, but I have to be worthy of your love for me, and today, I do not feel worthy."

Elaine stopped there. She walked to me, gave me a soft kiss, turned, and walked into the garage. I heard the garage door open, and her SUV pulled out and drove off.

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After I read Alfonso's note, it confirmed to me that he loved me. Seeing him stand up to Mathew, destroying him the way he did, made me proud of Al, but it also crystalized to me that I was at fault. It also confirmed that I was not the woman I thought I was or that Al believed I was. That woman could never have allowed Mathew to happen.

I had to leave to get help to sort through what I did and understand who I am. I just did the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I walked away from my loving husband, unable ...