Lies, Old and New - Sex Stories

Lies, Old and New

... Jillian responded. Jillian stopped. "You said, always said... not to refuse..." She sighed, then sat down. "Only crazy assholes refuse to hear both sides." She let out a long breath and waved a hand, almost in defeat. "Fuck it. Fine. Whatever. Nothing really matters anymore now anyway." She braced an elbow on the arm of her chair and put her forehead in her hand. "Explain it all away."

Tami took a step, arm outstretched, yearning to make contact with her child. Jillian practically snarled at her, looking ready to bite her fingers off.

"Bash can tell it. I don't know what you even are... Tami."

With abject misery, Tami just nodded and sealed her lips shut... then prepared herself to feel even worse. As she took another chair, she shot a look to Bastian, one filled with every ounce of hope she had left. He tried to reassure her with his eyes, but the result was anemic. Neither knew what was going to happen then, but they were running pretty low on optimism.

Nevertheless, Bastian plowed ahead and sat down too, facing Jillian fully, close enough that only inches separated their knees. It was good that the teen didn't pull away, but that was about the only concession she made as she watched her mentor try to fix... everything. "Jelly... I'm not your father." He squeezed his eyes shut, steeled himself, and went on.

"But I should have been."

From Jillian's reaction, he had her attention, at least.

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Eighteen Years Ago...

Bastian was honestly ...

... having trouble even processing what he was hearing. He could see Tami in front of him, clenched hands wringing over her stomach, eyes darting every way but towards him, mouth moving and moving and moving... He saw it all, and heard all the noises, but the problem was that his mind was too busy with its bombardment of images to make any sense of it.

Seeing that cute girl move in next door.

Sharing their first kiss in fifth grade.

Both reveling in the envy of everyone around them when they officially went steady their freshman year.

The first night of lovemaking, immediately followed by the first morning... then the first afternoon...

Her actually fainting when he proposed.

The wedding to beat all weddings.

...five minutes ago...

"Pregnant?" Bastian finally found his voice. "Tami... Tami, how?" He felt his eyes begin to itch. "Jesus... why?"

"Bastian, oh god... I was so wrecked. I just... when we got the news about... about your condition, I couldn't... I didn't know how to... to wrap my head around it." Tami reached up and cupped his cheek, sniffling. "This wasn't supposed to happen. Not to us."

"Nothing'ssupposed to happen to anyone!" Bastian jerked back, away from her. "My sperm doesn't work... that's notmy fault! It's not anyone's! Hell, Idiopathic Male Infertility is just fucking doctor code for 'who the hell knows?'"

Tami nodded, but didn't try to get any closer. "I know. I just... it wasn't right that I couldn't have your child. It's not ...