What The Hell Ch. 01 - Sex Stories

What The Hell Ch. 01

... comfort that I was feeling immediately disappeared. I took a few deep breaths, trying to keep myself calm.

I lifted my head from his chest, straightened my legs and put my feet flat on the carpet and stood. I turned and looked at Carl, I was tearing up again.

"I am not ready to make a decision and I certainly am not ready for this fight which I know will happen if we continue this discussion."

He lowered his head, "Mother was hoping that we could talk this out and set something for the spring."

"Mother," I stressed through my tightly held lips, "didn't recently bury her mother, as I did! Your mother didn't have her mother die while she was walking down the fucking aisle Carl." I spat. "Did she?" I was enraged at him.

"That was over three months ago!" He attempted an offering and an excuse

I glared at him. "How dare you!" I then explained that there was still pain in my heart and in my soul. I told him I did love him, I wasn't ready to go through all of that again.

"Feel free to tell your mother that I am simply not ready. I don't care if it was four months or four years, I am not ready for the stressyour mother will place onme for a weddingshe wants!"

I turned, made my way down the hall into the bedroom, set the alarm for 5 o'clock, changed into a sleeping shirt and shorts ensuring he knew there wasn't and change of making love tonight, turned off the lights and curled up in bed.

We didn't speak in the morning as I walked out the door heading ...

... back to the hospital. It seemed that the first really cold rain of the season came and everyone in the city limits forgot how to drive and act; we were swamped in the ER that day.

We had two, vehicle to pedestrian accidents, and a handful of vehicle to vehicle accidents, sadly, there were three overdoses, and god knows what else, those were just my cases. I knew there were a handful of late season outdoor injuries associated with children and the youth playing outside.

I sat at the nurse's station typing up patient notes when Lisa came and sat next to me. I blurted out to no one, "What the hell is wrong with people in the city."

She laughed and in her little loving and sarcastic tone responded, "It's a good day, neither my hubby nor my kiddo weren't in the ER. I count that a good day."

We both laughed a bit and agreed that we couldn't wait for this shift to come to an end. Deep down in my soul, I was in fear of the shift ending. It would mean I needed to go home and speak with Carl.

In reality, I did love him, the sex was, well it was ... good. It had been a bit lackluster as of late but that was my fault. I had been in a rut. I took care of Carl and didn't worry about me. I never said anything but as of late it seemed he was really focused on himself. My mother's 'five pump chump' comment came to my mind but this time I laughed.

It wasn't like I came every time. I enjoyed feeling him next to me when he fell asleep and I could curl up next to him. I really ...