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Rodeo Girl
Date: 9/30/2023, Categories: Transgender & Crossdressers, Author: byCristal_di_Canta
... bad? Was she a serial killer or something? Did she have HIV? How bad could it be? Surely I could cope. I loved this girl! "You've made me feel something I don't think I've ever felt before," she continued, pausing again as if to work out how to say what she wanted to say. I felt hopeful. It sounded good and I looked up and stared at the top of her head. "I'm jealous of Eileen," she said quietly. "I've never felt that before. I want to be the one in your bed, not her, but what right do I have? I work in porn. I fuck people for a living. I've got no right. I don't know how we can work and I can't see why you'd even want me. I'm a dirty filthy whore!" "No!" I shouted. She looked up, her face was drawn. "No, no no, no no! Karen, I think about you all the time! I just want to be with you all the time! You're an actress who is brilliant at her job! I should be apologising to you about my relationship with Eileen. That's not my job, that's my choice. That's me being weak. That's me being unfaithful!" I gushed this all out in one breath and felt exhausted. "But..." "But what?" I replied, still frustrated. "Well, I..." "No! I'm the one who's sorry. I'm the one who has an emotional attachment to someone else. I'm the one not being faithful to you! Can YOU forgive me? I don't want to make you unhappy. I'll come down to see you now, I'll get in the car. I'll get in your bed and I'll never leave." "No, no, don't do that! It's far too late, you're too emotional. ...
... I'd worry too much!" We were both crying. I had never seen Karen cry, in fact I could not recall ever seeing her get emotional at all, but she was crying now. Rivers. So was I. Since I had become a girl I was crying a lot, but it was normally through joy! I wasn't sure what this was. I think it was love. Love makes you cry. The pain of separation makes you cry. I placed my hand on the screen and she placed her hand on her screen two. I could feel her touching me! I could feel the warmth of her finger tips. A small smile appeared on her face and my lips began to curl upwards too. We talked until dawn. I saw a new fragile side of the girl I loved that made me love her even more, if that was possible. I was completely open with her about how I felt, and she confided her innermost secrets to me. Neither of us were hung up about fidelity or exclusivity. She wasn't really jealous, she just wanted to be with me and other things were stopping that happening. I felt that our fates were sealed. We were now lovers, but I was painfully aware that she had still not told me she loved me. Maybe she was too frightened to admit it. That it was the only insecurity she really had. The fear of admitting love and then losing it. I told her absolutely everything about Eileen, Rob and me, and I could see that she felt better about things. When I expressed my exasperation about Rob and how to deal with him, she told me what I should do and it all made perfect sense to me. ~~~***~~~ 12 ...