Wanting to go farther... - Sex Stories

Wanting to go farther...

... dutifully put on my clothes back over my panties and stuffed the butt plug in my ass. My anus felt a slick from the fucking. I walked outside and to my chagrin a young college age couple was sitting on the porch. I felt immediately ashamed but they looked at me and smiled and I smiled back at them. As I left I heard the girl kind of chortle, holding back a laugh. I felt my face flush. "Holy shit!" I thought, "they must have heard me." I felt so ashamed but at home it turned me on and I masturbated for the next three days thinking about the events. I had sex with Jon probably five more times but I realized that he was looking for something different. He was into guys, because he wasn't attracted to women or femininity. He would put up with the panties but no more than that, and the fact that he didn't get off on them like me made me eventually stop hanging out with him. For me, the panties were sexy as hell, a symbol of my beta status and a tribute to beautiful women. I knew I couldn't be a woman but if I was going to be the one getting fucked, I wanted to simulate their beauty and attractiveness. For him, the panties were nothing, something to be torn off. I knew I eventually had to find a top that liked the girly stuff. Not because I was an actual woman but because the outfits are sexy, and the fact that no alpha would wear something like that. I wanted to dress even more to symbolize my beta status and play to an alphas fantasies. I didn't want to have conventional gay sex...