1. Emotional Detachment from ones' self in what


    Date: 5/12/2016, Categories: BDSM Hardcore Taboo Author: uber_omar, Source: xHamster 

    ... had happened, stay in the past. I guess I couldn't though. I had to feel empowered again and was not feeling it at all because right after we had this huge fight over everything, and it was resolved, she wanted to be married. I was ok with this but not after feeling like I had caught her and now she was worried about being with c***dren and no father again. So my world was spiraling out of control slowly, the more she pushed for the wedding, the more I pushed myself away. I felt as if she was the d***k saying I'll suck you anytime I want. I pushed her away and latched onto a psycho.. worse than me. I realized what I had done. Then HER husband contacts my girlfriend and tells her what he knew about us. Issues resolved, we decide MUTUALLY on a marriage date. Been married since.. However, in recent. I shut myself down emotionaly and had not been the same person because I was picking up on little things here and there that were driving me to a point I was just going to snap. So I took a break from world. Then I find out she has been cutting herself, burning, another man kissed her.. she fell in love with another person.. and when I finally had snapped and had enough.. The b**st came back out. It had been so long since I had the pleasure of punishing something close. I sat on her, choked her with one ...
    ... hand, screamed in her ears. ripped hair.. bruised her ears, neck, chest.. Then she decides to tell me that we have never been compatable because she is a SUB and I am not a dom. That she has hidden so much from me and made such a fake face towards me on what truly makes her happy. Being dominated. Understandable that I broke trust by losing it, but how now, is it that the trust I needed to her establish, so I could show her domination to its fullest.. Is now gone? The anger grows inside again as I think about how she was burning herself instead of opening up to me.. How do you go about fixing this issue? How do you even approach the entire issue of, I was never pissy cause I'm a pussy, I didn't know how to not just get up and bend her over the bed for even speaking back and whip that ass til it was bruised and bleeding. How do you reopen things up when she is still timid because I had so much locked up inside. I was working Nights/evenings. Not like I can have control when I come home at 2 in the morning. Where do you start this to begin over, how do you approach the conversation? Oh, hey, yeah.. I have never told her why I have this account, perhaps just making a profile for her and linking it to her and say look ? Actually see what she does when she sees what I like? Please some ideas friends.
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