Emotional Detachment from ones' self in what - Sex Stories

Emotional Detachment from ones' self in what

... me, and what was going on in her head.. She threw on me that she was attracted to me and that her daughter didn't know what she was losing. Now, the most empowering moment I enjoyed was knowing that her husband was home. After a while, shit kept going on more and more, every day she would stop by for 2 years. Inbetween this, her daughter kept trying to involve me in her life again. So I also enjoyed power of fucking the mother in the morning/evening time, and telling her to leave so I could fuck her daughter in a couple of hours. Yet she still came crawling back to me even knowing that I was just in her daughter hour or so before. Husband found out (long story how) whole f****y found out shortly after. Yet she still came back. One night d***k beyond water. I remember her saying "I can suck you anytime I want" and I lost it. I had asked politly for her to leave and when she was standing there making a fool of herself undressing and trying to suck me off, after she said that.. I lifted her by the throat and slammed her head into the dresser. I remember telling her to never tell me when SHE can have me again. Off and on between this episode and a few more, there were some more women I was involved with. Finally let the mother back in again and discovered threesomes. The empowerment of telling her to suck off another man in the apartment, was overwhelming.. and other things. When I met the person I am with today, I decided that I wanted to try actual love again. So I buried ...

... EVERYTHING in my past deep ( she knew of some of the stories, just never the domination part) We were going good for 3-4 years and something intruded on my playing field. A Friend from her past. We became mutual friends, but I just felt like something was off. So I had to hide repressed feelings and hope for the best. I did not want to mess anything up with her because I loved and STILL do. Then my father died. Anything and everything around me became false. I was losing control of my life, my c***dren, my soon to be wife ( See, I never wanted to feel as if I needed to dominate her, i had known she was in a relationship of pure fuckery with the guy she was with and even though I wanted to be the person, who would burn her, if she wanted or treat her like shit, when needed, I would have done it. But never having her tell me she was into being dominated , why would I ever mess things up with her ? I had already failed countless marriages. Lost c***dren to women who couldn't carry, this one person the moment i knew i wanted to be with her for the rest of my life, was able to be with my c***d within a week afterwards. This felt for me a defining moment in my life that I had overcome whatever tortures were behind me and could start thinking of nothing more than just happiness without self tortue.) and had no idea what to do. First instinct was to go and destroy this other guy. I didn't. I let reason take over, trusted my girlfriend that I was just having insecurity issues, let whatever ...