Opening The Marriage: Breakfast Conversation, Chapter 2 - Sex Stories

Opening The Marriage: Breakfast Conversation, Chapter 2

... now, you just felt inhibited to act on them because of the strict religious culture we lived in at the time.”

Erin started to interject, but Luke pressed on, not wanting to be interrupted mid-thought.

“At the same time,” he continued, “the sexiest part of making love to you are responses. Obviously, women respond differently than men. You feel an attraction to women that I recognize and accept fully, Erin. I’m really okay with it, I don’t want this to seem like some kind of guilt trip at all. In fact, quite the opposite.” Luke paused, looking to the side, then resolutely looked back at her, his hazel eyes piercing into her light blue eyes. Erin knew this was the point Luke had been thinking about for a long time.

“Erin, I want you to have the freedom to be fully who you are. Sexually, I mean.” Luke hesitated, closing his eyes momentarily. “God, that sounds so corny when I say it out loud. What I mean, Erin,” he said, looking intently at her again, “is that I want to give you my endorsement to explore your sexuality in a way that was unavailable to you earlier in life. I want you to grow old with me knowing that you left no stone unturned. I am confident in our relationship, and in your love for me. I know that your attraction to me can remain the same. I just don’t want you to feel held back by our marriage. I want our marriage to be a wide and open place that can include all the things for you that you desire.

“We both have changed in important ways over the last ...

... several years. We both recognize that nothing has to be restricted to a prescribed set of rules. Our relationship can be whatever we choose it to be. Our marriage can be whatever we want it to be. I want you to feel free to explore all the things that you avoided in your twenties because of a stupid purity culture.

“I love our sex life, I mean I really love it,” Luke continued. “I know, just from this morning, that you do as well. I don’t feel that anything is lacking. I don’t want you to ever have to feel that there is something missing, either. I’m not asking for anything for myself, I just want you to feel free to explore in ways that were previously off-limits.”

Luke paused, closed his eyes, and waited for his words to sink in. Erin’s mouth was slightly agape, uncertain she had heard Luke correctly. She felt both incredibly excited and truly seen. Luke was recognizing something about her that she knew she had repressed out of a sense of duty in her black-and-white way of seeing the world when she was in her teens and twenties.

Luke’s world was gray, she knew that he could see options where she saw only absolutes.

She had never really considered acting on the attraction she felt toward women at different times in her life other than in her fantasies. She did find some women incredibly attractive, that was true. If she was honest with herself, there were many times she found women to be far more attractive than men. She had always channeled that feeling towards ...