From innocence to sexuality - Sex Stories

From innocence to sexuality

... I met them. Having a wild elder brother and my parents having lived in Europe for several years, I was allowed to really do whatever I wished while I was in high school. Her feeling alone and us having this crazy chemistry led to long phone conversations. Conversations which lasted for hours everyday. To a point where we were on the phone constantly, working, hanging out with friends and everything in-between. I am generally very sexually charged even now, but at the time I was constantly thinking about her. Whenever I was in bed and speaking with her, I would get a boner. She felt the same way, but she would not express it. In India, for a girl from a traditional family, it is not OK to kiss a man, before marrying him, forget having sex and God forbid you express your sexual desires as a woman. I knew some guys who were married for years and said that all they got from their wives was missionary. Despite all this, my hormones kept trying to turn the conversation towards sexual topics. I knew subconsciously that she was super sexually frustrated, but I could not get it out of her. I constantly felt this raw innocent sexual energy from her. Innocent as she had not watched porn, innocent as she had not fantasized about anything particular, innocence that I cannot explain but I will try. Then it happened, one night as our usual conversations ensued, I could hear the sexual frustration in my beautiful girlfriend's voice. She was aching to know something, but she kept putting it ...

... off. After speaking for two hours about several other things, the conversation came around to porn. She asked me if I had ever watched any. She asked me in a tone, where I felt like I was about to be apprehended. My reply was a tentative yes, for some reason at that moment I was not horny but concerned. It was not entirely impossible, that she would think that I am a pervert and refuse to speak to me. I really was concerned. Her tone changed to anger and she told me off. She said that it was not right and that it is not ok. It is supposed to be hideous and why would I do such a thing. I said that I cannot change the past, but I promise not to watch it any longer. That made her erupt, and she had never raised her voice for all the time that we had talked thus far. She said, “Do you mean, that while we are dating you are watching porn? How could you?” I told her that I was really sorry about the way she felt and I will not do it again. She calmed down and we began having a conversation about porn. About ten minutes into the conversation, I was a bit taken aback by something that she said. I realized that her imagination about porn was way more innocent and vanilla than what I was watching. She was talking about erotica, as in topless girls or girls with wet t-shirts and referring to it as hardcore porn. And she was jealous that I wanted to see other girls like that. She had really no idea. She thought soft porn was when they showed men and women kissing in Hollywood movies. The ...