I Surrender - Sex Stories

I Surrender

... Like, that's my job." We chatted for a while, talking about Megan and joking around. But mostly, I just look at her and think to myself I really do love her, so much that it's breaking me. It's breaking the Chris I am. I don't even know why did I have to fall in love with her. My other friends are wondering why I can't fall in love to other people, little did they knos—I love Lois so much I can't even imagine the thought of falling in love again. While we're talking, there were times where I find Lois looking at me weirdly. I know Lois so much, so much that it's scaring the two of us sometimes but hell, I don't know that look. I didn't even know she had that expression so instead of thinking about it, I put it aside. When it was time for me to go home, she walked towards the door. I can still hear the playing music player. I surrender by Celine Dion. Gosh. That song was my song for her. ~I know I can't survive Another night away from you You're the reason I go on And now I need to live the truth—~ When I was about to open the door, I heard Jessica called me, “Chris?" In her vulnerable voice which she only use when she's close to breaking down or losing control. I immediately turned around in worry, “Jessi—" I didn't finish what I was going to say because the next thing I knew, I was on the wall... with Jessica pinning me. ~Right now, there's no better time From this fear I will break free And I'll live again with love And no they can't take that away from me And they will ...

... see...~ “Wh-what—" “Megan's right, Chris. She was right about one thing." Then she did the last thing I ever thought she will do. Jessica kissed me. ~I'd surrender everything To feel the chance to live again I reach to you I know you can feel it too We'd make it through—~ It was like those rom-com movies' kiss. Soft, passionate and full of love. Except she doesn't love me. In no time, I was kissing her back. I snaked my arms on her neck while I felt her hands on my waist. Jessica was taller than me so it's only natural to hold onto her for balance. The kiss turned into a hot make out session. I felt her hand cupping my right breast inside my T-shirt and when moved her leg between me, I released a gasp, giving her the chance to snake her tongue inside my mouth. But when she rocked her leg that is between me that caused me to released a moan, I woke up from my heartbreaking reality. She doesn't love me. And this could turn out bad. I'm taking advantage of her. And I can't. It means changing. And changing is goddamn scary. ~A thousand dreams I still believe I'd make you give them all to me I'd hold you in my arms and never let go I surrender~ I pushed her, unexpectedly maybe for her face showed shocked and hurt(?). I wss shaking my head, looking at her. Damn it. I even realized I'm crying. “Chris—" “You—you c-can't do that... Jessica. You just—you just can't." Then I walked out the door. I was sure I only walked out the door. But it felt like I'm walking out of her life too. --- ...